Imagine Me and You

My partner and I went and saw Imagine Me and You tonight. If you haven’t seen the movie, I really recommend it. It’s a British film, that has Piper Perabo, from Coyote Ugly in it. The newcomer, I believe is Lena Headey. Well, I wouldn't say newcomer, based on my reading about her, she's been in a number of movies and tv. shows. Might I SAY, Lena is one foxy lady. She looks like a genetic mixup of Kiera Knightley, and Tea Leoni. And yes, she was in the Brothers Grimm movie. But she’s beautiful, and I was spending much of my time perving on her during the movie ::snickers:: Unfortunately, she’s very much straight. Isn’t that how it always is??

But really, the movie is well done I believe. It’s a gay romantic movie, that is just that…a romantic movie. And yes, I got teary eyed at one point. But aside from the great plot, there are so many fantastic one liners. You gotta love the British humor!!! Without giving too much away about the movie, there were many many times we were laughing our arses off. And there were times where other people in the audience were laughing so hard. I really recommend seeing the movie. It’s a movie you take your partner (referring to lesbians here peeps ::smirks:: ). Doesn’t mean if you don’t have a partner, or are a lesbian you won’t enjoy the movie, but it’s the sort of movie you’d take your lesbian partner, or a lesbian date. It’s tastefully done (in the kissing scenes) and it goes beyond the scope of two women falling in love with each other. I think maybe that’s why it’s being played at all theaters, instead of select ones, like Brokeback Mountain.

-current mood-RELAXED

Laughter

I have to say, that laughter is such a great thing. I’ve just finished my 3rd week at my job, and I love it. It’s crazy to think that I’ve been here for almost a month already. I’ve learned so much, and met so many great people. I love the people I work with, and I laugh a lot. Maybe because today was Friday, and “casual for a cause day.” (we get to wear casual clothing, if we pay 2.00 for charity) But everyone was in good spirits today. I was a bit surprised, being that it was very warm outside.

But I went to lunch with 3 other people (new starters) and my team leader for this training period. And it was nice to go out to lunch for one thing, but it was nice to socialize with people. I haven’t done that in quite some time, and with some new people. But J and V are both so darn funny. The stories you hear them tell, and just their facial expressions, I couldn’t help but just laugh during the hour and a half lunch we had.

Ahhh, moments like this, makes me want to pass my probationary period even more. Aside from having to find another job, the idea of me having to leave these people, (even though I don’t know them that well) that saddens me. So every time someone asks me how I’m doing, or how I think things are going, I totally sugar coat it. I don’t want there to be any hesitation as to me NOT wanting to be here. Aside from having to drive in the city, there isn’t much that I’m too worried about. Hopefully I won’t have to, but in due time I’ll know.

-current mood-SO HAPPY, it's Friday!!

Crowded trains

I am pretty good about judging my time of getting off of work so that I can catch a train that usually isn’t packed. If I catch the train that is just on the hour, I usually can get a seat. Any time after 5:00, there’s no chance. Well, today, my team leader had to leave at 4:00 or around there. We told her that we had finished the files she had given us, and she said “okay, well you can go home. Have an early day.” R and I thought, “yeh, great.” It’s bloody warm outside, and being in the office at 4:00, that’s usually when I slow down. So I was excited to leave work early.

I get to the train station, the platform that I am supposed to leave on, and this announcement comes on. “Please pardon the interruption, but the 5:16 train to such and such train station has been cancelled due to faulty trains.” Then about 3 minutes later, ANOTHER train time was cancelled, to somewhere else. The faulty trains and cancellations usually happen when it’s really hot outside. The airconditioning mucks up I guess, and so the Connex train people have to cancel train routes. It’s not fun, at all. I ended up having to wait 25 minutes before the next train came.

And what a nightmare that was. Because a train had been cancelled earlier, all the people waiting for THAT train, had to wait and catch this one. After we all got on, the train was packed. The next train stop, people kept thinking that we could squish in more…it was very uncomfortable. It was packed, worse than a tin of sardines. And it was hot, and some people don’t know the meaning of using deoderant. I felt like my face was squished up against the window pain. (The window pane was behind a set of seats, that’s where I was jammed into.) Every train stop we took, people kept trying to squish in. One guy, had a freakin’ PLANT, a HUGE PLANT, and wanted to get on the the train. We just all laughed at him and told him he’d have to wait. Usually about the 4th or 5th stop, people usually get off, and you can usually get a seat. Nope, it took at least the 7th stop I think, before there was some breathing room.

I think this is bad, I CAN’T imagine what is going to happen during the Commonwealth Games in March. People are warning commuters about the extra amount of people who are going to be taking public transportation. They’re telling US that WE need to accommodate to THEIR needs. But we’re the people who have jobs…it’s not like we can say “look boss, but I’m going to be late.” In my case, I have flexi time, so if I’m late, I can make up the time. But it’s still not a good idea to come to work late..not in the first few months of the job. Officials are telling us that people should try to avoid the peak times. But sometimes, you just can’t avoid them. I have a feeling I’m going to have to catch the early train into the city, and start at work at 8:00. I usually catch the train to be at work at 8:15, and that’s starting to get a bit congested. Lucky for me, my train ride into the city, the station I go to, is the first stop. So I have always gotten a seat. But the train the past few days has been like 2 minutes before it’s due to leave the station. It’s usually at the station 10 minutes before it’s due to leave.

It’s going to be hell for 2 weeks, durings the Commonwealth games. I’m not looking forward to it. But there isn’t anything I can do about it. I guess that is the consequences I get, for working in the city, which is the host city for a major sports venue. ::shrugs shoulders:: The ride home isn’t so important, though I DON’T want to be driving home from the station at 8:00, after leaving work at 5:30. That’s just rediculous. Officials say that they’re going to have 15,000 more train routes for the Commonwealth games, but I honestly don’t know if that’s going to be enough. They need to put more train routes NOW, not just for the commonwealth games. The commute, going to work, or going home, is always crammed..depending on what stop you’re at. It’s insane, and utterly annoying that nothing is being done!

-current mood-HAPPY, tomorrow is FRIDAY.

Incessant sniffing

I was on the train this evening and this girl came and sat across from me with her friend. Looking at her, she probably was 17-18 maybe, and completely into herself. I was getting a little irritated in hearing her whole life story she was telling. But what was making me even more irritated, is the fact that she kept sniffing. Sniffing like she had just sniffed some coke. You know that type of sniffing??? It’s like when some people get chills running down their spine when someone scratches nails on a chalkboard. Well, it didn’t send chill down my spine, but it made me want to scream “blow your nose.” But I’m not sure if she needed to blow her nose. ::shaking head:: What ever the case was, she needed to do something about it. In the time that she sat near me, and then finally left, I can count at least 25 times that she “sniffed” That is just 25 times too many!!! Was she not aware that she was being utterly annoying?? Probably not, because she was spending too much time, talking about herself. ::shrugs shoulders::

-current mood-DISAPPOINTED, I thought tomorrow as Friday ::boo hoo::

"Baby Don't Break My Heart Slow"

The past few weeks, I’ve been reminscing about the break up of my last relationship and just how it came about. I’ve been listening to the Vonda Shephard and Emily Saliers song “Baby Don’t Break My Heart Slow” and it takes me back to a time, where my then partner, told me that this song meant a lot to her. It meant a lot because it wasn’t the way she wanted things to end up, if and when it came to that time. She would have prefered me tell her straight away if things were going awry, then to drag it on. When I knew that things were going downhill, I let her know. Maybe I let her know too quickly, because I wasn’t about to give her another chance. Not to go into a lot of detail, but I wish I could take back the way things ended with us. I wasn’t the most civil person when it came to breaking up. But there’s no point in me dwelling about it, is there? I try to tell myself that, but at times, I still feel pretty bad about the whole situation.

Every time I hear the song, or watch the episodes in Ally McBeal, which this song is played, tears come to my eyes. I don’t know if it’s more because of the song itself, or the meaning behind it. During the times of separation that my now partner and I had (when we were separated by water) we would send songs to each other, that had some sort of meaning at the time. This was one of the songs I sent to her, during a time where things were rocky. It’s never been that my partner has cheated on me or even thought about it. But the song made me sad, because it related to her, and her past relationship. In her first gay relationship, her ex girlfriend was the sort of person to leave my partner at home, while she went off and did her own thing with who ever she wanted. Her ex girlfriend was an alcoholic, and loved to party. My partner was not into that scene, probably why they didn’t last. But I hear the song and I just get sad, because it makes me think of my partner being home alone, wondering what is going on, when her partner, the one who supposedly loves her, is out fornicating with someone else.

I thought I’d share the song lyrics. It’s a very nice ballad, though it always brings tears to my eyes. But nonetheless, listen to the song if you’re able to.

I like the way you wanted me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time things got rocky

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken,Do you say, do you say what you mean
I want our love to last forever
But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

I like the way you'd hold me
Every night for so long baby
And I like the way you'd say my name
In the middle of the night
While you were sleeping

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken
Do you mean, do you mean what you say
When you say our love could last forever

Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

You would run around and lead me on forever
While I wait at home still thinking that we're together
I wanted our love to last forever
I was believing in you

Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

p 1999 Three Roads, Inc. © 1999 Vendredi Music (ASCAP)

-current mood-MOPEY, just cuz.

Dialup

Yes, I happen to be one of the VERY few people who has dial up. But it was decided, that we would wait until I got a full time job, before we’d invest in dsl. I ended up ringing our internet service provider, and they told me that it’d take 10-15 working days for the modem and everything to arrive at our house. Then it’s up to us to hook up the dsl. I’ve hooked up dsl before, so I have a rough idea of how it all works. If it doesn’t, well I have a handy brother in law who is very computer savvy, and will be able to help us out.

But for the past few months now, when ever we have connected on dial up, it has been only connecting at 36-38 kbs. Now that is super super slow. So slow, that I get overly frustrated. But last night, for some reason…it started connecting back up at 48 kbs., what it should be. When I rang up about the dsl, I asked about why it was only connecting at 38 kbs. And the tech guy said that it has to do with the phone line. Not the line that connects to your computer, but inside the walls I guess. ::shrugs shoulders:: I asked him how this would affect my dsl download speeds, and he said it shouldn’t make that much of a difference. He said I should be getting 1200-1500 kbs. But he said to do a download speed test, once dsl is looked up, and if there is a considerable speed difference, to ring them up. But I was getting a little peeved, because we’re only getting 36-38 kbs, and we’re paying for basic 56k dialup.

I had to laugh, when I went online to check the contact details, the owner of the service (my partner) was filled in as Mr. I quickly changed it, but got a laugh, because I think the tech guy I was talking to, assumed that I was heterosexual. Personally, I think if there is no prefix to a name, there isn’t a need for it. It’s optional, so why the need? I thought it was funny at first, but then by the end of the night, I think I was a little irritated.

-current mood-RELAXED, winding down for the evening.

Brokeback Mountain

Last night my partner and I watched Brokeback Mountain. We had been wanting to see it for quite some time, but just hadn’t been able to do so. We were finally able to. First impressions of the movie; it started out slow, but then progressed, the music was wonderful, and the scenery was breathtaking. I think there was way too much hype about the movie. Okay, so it was a movie about two cowboys who have a 20 year relationship that started in the early 60’s. Big deal right? I guess it was a big deal for so many people, hence why the controversy, and why it wasn’t being played in all theaters. But in watching the movie, I didn’t think it was controversial at all. The love scenes were tastefully done with the Jake and Heath. Was a little surprised to see Anne Hathaway’s breasts in the movie. I’m so used to seeing her playing “innocent” and “youthful” roles. I of course have seen Michelle Williams’ bare chest in If These Walls Could Talk 2, so that was of no surprise to me. Everything, I thought was tastefully done, which I think would have stirred up a lot of people, had it not been done that way. But even so, some people may have said it was too vulger.

I wonder how the gay community took to the movie, mainly gay men. The reason why I ask, is because of the fact that “are cowboys” part of gay culture? Not to sound like they’re NOT, but think of all the stereotypes that fall in the realms of gay culture. You rarely hear about gay cowboys. The friend of ours, that is gay, he didn’t really like the movie. He thought it was alright, but he couldn’t really get into the gay cowboy theme. But I see the gay cowboy theme, as another element to gay life. In the media, we’re used to the stereotypes, but it’s nice to lean away on such ideas.

Any one else seen the movie? If so, what was your initial reaction, and do you believe the Oscar nominations were well deserved??

-current mood-TIRED, I think I slept too much.