Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Thank you to All

Thank you to everyone who gave me well wishes upon my grandfather passing away. it's been a rough time, and the combination of that, and work, life has been a bit hectic. I know there isn't much I can do, in regards to my grandfather. In truth, I wasn't close to him. But even so, the fact that he's no longer here, that makes the reality of it difficult.

I thought I would be okay with my grandfather's passing. And for the most part I am. But last Monday, when I came back to work, I had a, pardon my french "sh*t" of a day. I had some guy use and abuse me over the phone, and after I got off the phone with him, I just broke down in tears. I think, any other day, he could have abused me, and it wouldn't have affected me. But I was just on sensitive that day, and his comments did no justice to the cause.

Things are getting better, though I feel like I'm starting to get the winter blues. I'm feeling down and depressed, and when I think long and hard about it, I just know it's because it's dark when I leave for work, dark when I get home...and it's just miserably cold outside. It's not as cold as it is at home in the States, but it still IS cold.

My partner and I had a birthday party for her this past weekend, and it really got my mind off of my grandfather. We had a great time, and I know she's glad that she had it. I guess turning the big 40 is a bit depressing for my partner. But she's taking it well. As she says "you're only as old as you feel."

But again, thank you to everyone who sent me comments and messages. It was nice knowing that others have been in this situation and/or are thinking about me. Very much appreciated. I hope to get back to blogging and people's private messages. So never fear, for I am back ::winking::