Thanks for the advice

Thanks to everyone who has given some great advice regarding the previous topic. It seems like this is an issue that is a constant one. And I do ask myself every day "will it get better?" People say that I don't deserve it, and I know that I don't. But I keep having faith and hope, that things WILL get better.

After I was so upset with this whole issue, I had a chat with my partner, and she stated that she was scared of what the doctor would say. She is afraid the doctor will want to put her on hormone replacement tablets and she doesn't want that. She started to get all teary, and I started too as well. I told her that this was something we needed to get resolved because it wasn't doing any good for either of us.

This was a few weeks ago, and of course nothing has happened. I got in a huff a couple of nights ago, because when I asked my partner when she was going to go to the doctor, she just gave me this "look."

I had a brief email conversation with my mum about this, because I was pretty distraught. And I guess the thing is, people can tell me their own advise and opinions, and people may have been through this themselves. But can anything really make one feel better? I'm hoping that when I go home for the holidays, I'll be able to have a good chat with my mum about it. I wasn't trying to get too personal, but I wanted her to know how upset I've been. I'm here in Australia, no family, hardly any friends...and frankly, I need a lot more support.

I haven't blogged in a little while, and I guess it's just cuz I've kind of still been down and out. I can only keep prying and keep hoping that things will change. I'm not the sort of person to just give up on love and a relationship because there isn't any intimacy. But I AM human, and I DO need some affection and love shown.